I’m going to discuss a serious topic this morning, and this is a subject that’s not easy for me to air publicly. Still, I’ve never hidden any aspect of my life that is related to health and fitness and I’m not comfortable starting now…
I’m feeling really good this morning. On Monday I returned to my clean diet, and last Sunday I decided to completely cut out alcohol. Why? Well, ever since my cut ended I’ve found myself drinking increasingly large amounts of vodka. While I was on vacation last week my drinking escalated considerably. I won’t go into all the details, but I will say that while I was on vacation I became aware that I was no longer in control, and haven’t been for a while. There is a long history of alcoholism in my family, and this is something that I’m afraid also affects me and my “all or nothing” personality. Almost 8 years ago I stopped smoking pot completely because I was unable to moderate my consumption, and I’ve decided that the same is true with alcohol. Health and fitness are very important to me, and I’ve come too far to let something get in the way of everything I’ve overcome over the past eight years. On Sunday night I dumped what was left of my vodka down the drain, and I will never drink it (or any other hard liquor) again.
Beer and wine have never had the effect on me that hard liquor does. I’ve always been able to have a couple beers or a glass of wine with a meal and then have zero desire to consume more. I’m not sure why that is. In any event, right now I’m going to remain 100% alcohol-free for at least 6 months, and maybe even forever. I feel so much better when I’m cutting and bulking and abstaining from alcohol 100%, so I might as well make that a full-time thing.
Like I said, this was a difficult update for me. I’m a pretty private person, but I felt it was important to discuss this issue. No one is perfect, least of me. I feel that if I talk about my own battles maybe it will help someone else come forward and face theirs. I hope so.