An extremly painful day…
Loki, our long time family member (I rescued Loki in late 1996 when he was about 10 months old), has not been well the past week or so. Because Loki is over 18 years old, his immune system is very weak. When I took him to the vet on Friday he was suffering from a reoccurring UTI, an eye infection, dehydration and diarrhea. For the past 8 months or so he’s required a belly band with a Poise pad around his waist due to incontinence. Also, for quite some time now he’s required us to help him stand up, and he often falls once he’s up.
Loki has suffered from Addison’s Disease for a long time (I think he was diagnosed around 10 years ago). Prednisone is very effective in treating Canine Addison’s Disease, but as the disease progressed the Prednisone was not enough and about a year ago I started administering monthly injections of a drug called Percorten.
Despite these health issues, up until this past week Loki’s quality of life was excellent: he has remained alert, happy and even playful. Despite Loki’s almost unheard of advanced age, his hearing and vision are still quite good. Mentally he’s still 100% there.
The past week has been extremely difficult for Loki and, of course, us. For several days he has refused to eat more than a bite or two, he’s thrown up several times, he still has diarrhea, he’s extremely weak, he’s restless, he seems very uncomfortable and quite possibly in pain.
Loki’s had a long and wonderful life, and he’s brought us more joy and happiness than he’ll ever know. Even though I knew this day would eventually come, I’m sitting here wracked with uncertainly and even guilt, crying my eyes out as I attempt to type. I’m trying so hard to separate my own selfish desires from the reality of the situation. I have to find the strength to do what’s right. I can’t let my beautiful friend of nearly 18 years suffer.
Barring a miracle, we’ll be saying goodbye to a beloved family member today. I thank you all for understanding that I need to take a couple days off from my blog. My diet and training will continue, but I am not going to feel much like writing. I’ll be back sometime this week.